a long journey

i'm still being paranoid by all these. when can it stop? should i or should i not? i need answers. help? i ask rizzy and of course la, he loves to disturb me and gets me even more paranoid. all the hoohahs and the wild imagination like a kitty chasing a chiwawa. err..? lol. i'm taunted questions by questions from people related to him. i can't breathe la. can they just leave me alone? can't i have peace at least? i know its just a question. so what. well, if you keep on asking me, it'll get me thinking more and more and i can't decide or i'll change my perception, my thinking, change what i want and everything because you get me thinking hard. sometimes i feel its like i need to meet all expectations, THE expectations by THESE people. its like die-die must follow if not you die. yeah, something like that. i don't know how to elaborate. i sucks at elaborating it into further details. but you get what i mean? err...

i don't know if anyone understand what i'm talking about but whatever. i don't even understand myself. goodnight.

before i forgot...
happy belated 18th birthday to bee bee shakila! see you soon. ;)
and happy 20th birthday to hafiizh! :)
and to my dear mum who have been there for me since forever, happy birthday to you too. i love you! :)
and oh! thanks iyl for teman-ing me just now to get my overdue certs but in the end i still didn't get to take the cert because office is open during working hours only. shit! but at least i get to visit Bishan. ;)

another sweetest escape
10:15:00 PM