a long journey

READ IT. TO ME ITS TOUCHING. I GOT IT FROM HER DIARY. HAHA. WELL.

WRITTEN FOR PPL WHO BELIEVES IN FIRST LOVE.

*sob2*

A TOUCHING DIARY ENTRY by her ~.

i really missed *** . He had been bz lately and theres no tyme fer hym. YES - i noe his in JC now. And as usual it is really tough. But still i remember what he said to me in the past. " No matter how busy i am, i will always find tyme fer you. " hrmx.. guess he cant do that fer me animore. i realli missed those days when we kinda cared more fer each other. its nyce but i cant turn back tym. I remember one time - how i want hym to wear tappered pants cos he looks cute in it. Serious. Sumore with his harrington and all. I even remembers how i once know hym. Thru udi. It started when he wants to knal2 with my fren lyk HELL. Well, someone. So i gave hym the grrl email add. Den of cos he is happy. Yeah- thats how i started noeing hym. We continue chattin... blabalabla~

From den on, i find hym caring, friendly, *KEYOOT*.

Known hym well from den onwards. 13 Aug 2004. Yeah. I still rmbrs tt.On mid Nov 2004. To be exact on the 19th. We became couples. I love tt day. I rmbr the ferst tym i went out wif hym fer th ferst tym at Bedok.He helped me with art. how kyute. i love his hair. hehe. but tt tyme we werent a couple. just friends.

1 mths. 2 mths. 3 mths. 4 mths.

Yeah. it was not a happy moment fer me.cos urm..i dunno. its lyk.. haish.. we were on bad terms. we fyte. i regret it so much.i mish hym so much. and since tt day we werent close anymore. i regret everything that i've done. i dun even reali noe wat i haf done tt makes hym angry.

im lucky to haf someone who undrstnds me. listens to my problems and stuff. accompany me when im alone. he is really diff than my other ex. Now, i dont expext hym yo want me back. i jus hope he wld be happy. i guess noe its gonna be diff.

No one to talk too. No one to cry on. I dunno. No one sees my pain. I just smiled thru my tears. No one noes how hurt i am. I just cried to let my pain out. But its no use. i just dunno how it started. he is bz with his school. and i noe its realli important to hym. i dowan to fyte. no matter what, i still care fer hym for he had been the guy whom i loved and i cherish tt.

mayb to hym, im not the understandable one. its just tt i kept saying anything when im sad, angry or jealous. he told me he hated my attitude. i noe. i've tried to change tt. it really takes tym. ive really tried. he alwaes thinks im prioritising my friends. but im not actually. i treat my friends equally. i dowan my friends to think that since i have bf, i forget bout dem. wat would dey think? its not fair. i dowan hym feeling left out. if he still thinks i am prioritising my friends den i dunno wat else to say.

i really mish hym. i want hym back. but i guess it wouldnt happen. its been 6 mths now since we're apart. i dowan to disturb hym. he have a bright future. A big career ahead of hym. what else fer a JC guy?

im nothin. just hope he is happy now. with whoever. mayb JC girls perhaps? well, at least dey have a bright future ahead of dem too. well he is happy nw ryte so...just..take care..

thanks fer reading. u cld leave any comments. thanx.

another sweetest escape
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